"Thinking of The Master Plan..."

Here’s the thing. I desire to be better and the only way that desire has the chance to come to pass is if I make some serious changes. One of those changes includes my relationship with social media. Don’t get me wrong, Social media applications and websites can be a wonderful thing to experience. With just a click of a finger, a scroll of a thumb, and a touch of a screen, you are looking through a person’s point of view of how awesome their lives are… and honestly, that makes me happy. I love that people feel beautiful, that they are accomplished and well-traveled, but if I’m being honest, it also pushes me to compare myself to the “accomplishments” of others.

I am not traveling the world, I am not a model, I am not employed at the job of my dreams, I cannot afford to make weekend trips to nowhere, I am not engaged, nor will I be any time soon, I do not have a little person growing inside of me, I may not have five degrees and full scholarships to the university of my choosing—half of the time I know not what I want to do with myself on a day to day basis. My “not doings” are magnified under the microscope of Instagram, Facebook, and Twitter.

I am a 24 year old female with no job (yet), a busted 1995 orange geo prism (whose tire is always flat, side view mirror is always falling off [I reattach it with tape, glue and string] and air condition decides not to work even on the coolest days of the summer), who lives in her mother’s home. It took me 6 years to graduate with one degree, and if I’m being honest, that can really feel like nothing when watching the timelines on my feed.

But it’s all a lie.

People put their most successful accomplishments on the feed. And if you ask around, you may find that those same people you admire and aspire to be like struggle with feelings of inadequacy as well. No one is perfect. No filter on Instagram can make a person whole. When I really think on it, I don’t want engagement or baby announcements. I don’t need a new car or home. The problem isn’t that I’m not as beautiful as the next person on my timeline… I desire to be whole.

I was created with purpose. I was created to do wonderful things. Social media is only a concentrated version of things seen and said every day to add to feelings of inadequacies that already lie within me. Those insecurities were always there, it’s just that now I can feed them with constant access from my phone and computer.

Something has to change. So, I unplug. I’m unplugging from every worldly opinion of what beauty is—of what success looks like for a woman my age in America. I am unique. There is no one in the world like me. This isn’t a one size fits all.

We were not meant to fit into molds, but to mold into our own fit—our very own custom made, designed by the one who called you for this time to be who He created you to be. Don’t be a cookie cut out version of what the world believes is beauty, success, and all of these other words that have no true meaning in any mouth but God’s.

You’re a masterpiece. I’m a masterpiece… the pieces to our mosaic are already there. It’s just a matter of putting them together correctly. It’s time to ask the Master for directions.